Felocity

As I made my way home for break, Thurs. afternoon (yesterday) I wrote down on my cell phone everything I could about the trip. What follows is an unmodified copy of my trip. Especially towards the start, it gives you a lot to think about...you see, my college is near a low income area, and actually the Greyhound station is near the heart of it.

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You've been given a chance to live in the perfect paradise for a year, but with one condition - you must leave your family and friends behind, and have no contact with them. Would you go?

If you would have asked me this a week ago, no, I would not trade anything, even for perfection, but lately, well, I am slightly biased. If the previous entries don't lend themselves to "why" then well, I just can't help ya there. By now though, I would give up everything here for paradise. I have (in my mind) little to nothing left. But then again, I watched myself lose everything over the course of 3 days. I don't know how that is possible, but well, it just is. Those that support me, of course would tell me that if it all disappeared in 3 days, it could be back in three days. But that is optimisim for you - and yours truly is a pessimist. …

Finished a track I had been working on for quite some time, titled "Justice" and stuck it on MP3.com. There is quite a sense of accomplishment tied to finishing something like that. Anyway, so that is done. http://www.mp3.com/DJMech for those interested. Should be up by tomorrow or the next day.

Anyway, today was a pretty big bore. Mostly because I am trying not to have anything major happen in my life right now. I have enough stress from school that I really have no desire to add social to the stress list as well. I have a lot of Spanish to do, a lot of Media Tools homework to do, and really...well, I should have been doing that instead of making music. Nothing I can really do about that now, eh? Anywho, getting back to my day, I skipped Physical Science because we weren't doing anything too terribly important. If we were, I suppose I would have gone instead of hanging with friends and such. Well, I was in my Spanish and HWI classes at least. (Cut me some slack, 2 out of 3 isn't so bad.) Tomorrow I have Spanish, then Media Tools, then the weekend is here, because I created my schedule to have no Friday classes. I need to hook up with Jen to go to Language lab too...I have not gone for this week. Actually (shh dun tell) I haven't gone any week. It is probably costing me points too. At least in the form of the Lab Book anyway. …

Well, getting them anyway. Writing them takes a lot of effort, but two of them are done. One to my friend in Texas, the other to a friend up in Chico. There is something satisfying about a written letter.

Today was a bore really. I could barely get out of bed this morning to make myself go to Spanish. It wasn't worth going, as the class (in its typical fashion) did nothing. Then was media tools, and lab, and I still got nothing done. Finally was otter real- oh wait, still nothing done. Now I am in my room, listening to "Bad Acid Jesus" you know "Hello Ravers...It's me again, Jesus Christ..." it is beautiful. Seems logical enough to me.…

Woke up on 3-3-2001 at 8:31A

The strangest of dreams, and the first "good dream" I have had in a while, I swear. Usually they are all bad. But this one actually finish, completely, and I didn't get jarred out of my sleep for a change. I woke up totally rested on only 3 hours of sleep. …