Felocity

Okay, time to be honest with myself here. Still got that crush on Heather. She wore some sandals today and she looked really fucking hot. I swear I am OVER her. ... riiiight. I don't see how some guy won't come by and sweep her off her feet. Okay, let me reword that. Guys are stupid idiots. Most would pass her over because she isn't stereotypically pretty. In looks, she is somewhere between average, and good looking. But she's cute. Unfortunately, this also doesn't attract the kinds of guys that she likes. The tall, the lean, the blond and pretty usually get their pick of the litter, and that really sucks. I think the reverse is true with girls as well. I remember how I would talk with Sara about how people like Julie Tedford has a line of boys to go through, and no worries about messing up any one relationship.

I haven't heard from Tessa yet, which kind of sucks. I was hoping to hear from her so maybe we could hang out. She reminds me of Chico Sarah in terms of looks, very cute and very bright. She's pretty witty, which is always nice. And she likes cows. I don't know why this random fact is important, but walking around campus with a fuzzy cow backpack is really cool. I may try and drop her an email once back in Monterey. I am not holding my breath about the whole thing though - I know better.…

The 4:30 am super cosplay (holy crap) extravaganza!

Done: wristbands pants glasses (cheated, just using own)…

I am a member of Lasoldier's"Dude, I'm Screwed" club as I work on my lamination (using packing tape) for my 10 finger katana things. Then I need to spray them again with silver spray paint and protectant to give them a nice sheen. It's only 4 days... more than enough time! keyahahahahahaha!

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Oh you crazy Fanime, now you've done it. You've done the good things like finally getting the whole convention center to yourself, getting away from the Westin Santa Clara next year, getting a massive location in San Jose, doing a pretty good job of improving your ConOps, and throwing a great Masquerade when you think of how many people you sat down in Exhibit Halls A & B. You even had NDKScott (or as many know him as Scott Anime of Artemis Radio) running your AMV competition flawlessly.

But we need to talk. I saw your infobooth hidden in the dealer's room, and I saw some of those "other things" too. I have been meaning to have this talk with you for a while, you know, like a father-son talk only more like fan-convention talk. I've known you all my Anime life, and you were the first Con I went to.…

I wrote a review for a really awful piece of fanfic. It was so bad, ficbitches wouldn't touch it, it made most people cringe, and it was just a mistake to probably have been posted. I made a rewview of it, posted my review to FF.net, and the fic magically vanished! So now I present to you: fic-be-gone! Maybe these reviews will help fanfiction authors improve. Or it will get them to flame me with silly badly spelled emails. Either way, it's a win in my book.

In A Lupin State Of Mind http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=1396253 Current Status of Fic: REMOVED…

I think the campic sums it all up for now. ^_^ Full report and stuff once I wake up a bit more, but here's a short short SHORT version.

Yay: - seeing most everyone - finally meeting Annie (only took how long?) - holding up Game and Watch and having it projected on those huge 12 foot screens - dinner with Brian and everyone at IHoP - running a really good Club Panel (I was so nervous - not being a Vol this year and just having fun all con - GakuFest and BLOOD - getting to see Kristine SA perform live and getting a signed CD…

My legs hurt, sort of a slight tingling and burning sensation. Been standing on them all day; it seems like convention training I guess.

Cosplay? Yeah. Kuro - glove #2 done, going to need help putting them on when the time comes. Putting on gloves requires fingers. Kuro has katanas for said fingers. Unlike in One Piece, you can not just slip gloves on and off without your fingers. The spray paint likes to stick to itself as well, so if anyone knows a way to reduce spray paint stickyness, that would rock. As far as the costume goes, I need to locate a big black button shirt or a big jacket. I have the slacks, but need the brown shoes. I also need to find a way to do his fucked up shirt he wears. I was thinking I could starch some fabric (maybe plastic underside) and attach it to a standard collar on a dress shirt. I also need to do his shirt pattern, but I bought the buttons and felt today, and hopefully I can beg / plead H into drawing the design for me. For as simple as it is, I would mess it up pretty bad.…

Phew, today was long. On the plus side, I am making great progress on my AX costume and have most everything I need for my Fanime one too. Wait, what was that? Jakob doing costumes?

I had to change what costumes, and how to do them, but things are looking up. However, I have learned yet again 10 hard lessons about costumes.…

Today was a very long day. It involved lots of black, $40 of spark plugs, a bro-to-bro talk, finishing 90% of the csumb anime club page, not working on costumes at all, talking to an old friend, getting the phone number for an equally old friend, finding out a really cool person is going to AX, getting both panels (Fanime and AX) confirmed and notices sent, catching up on 3 days of e-mail, downloading Wolf's Rain 19 and Naruto 37, sleeping...

Okay, haven't done the last yet. About to fix that.…

The original plan was to get out of my house and do something today. I did in fact do things, but what I could have done and what I did were very different. I had to make a call to Josh and Carrie about Jason, which wasn't much fun. I spent an hour with the car getting smogged, another hour or so at the Davidsons, and have been running errands.

My brother grew up way to fast. People always gave me a hard time about acting a lot older than I am, but I didn't have to do what he has been doing. I may as well share the news if you know my brother. One of his really good friends, Jason Davidson died. As I write this, the cause of death is unknown. He inisited that he be the one making all the calls to people to inform them. He was just standing there on Friday next to Jason at graduation, just did grad night with him. I don't know if he ever saw Saturday's sun rise into the morning sky, but my guess is that in his sleep, something (possibly related to his epilepsy) happened.…

I can't let tonight be a late night for me. My body seems to be adjusting to the "up until 4 am, sleep until noon" pattern, which while it was good for finals, wakes me up right into the afternoon sun and leaves me exhausted all day. Having managed to do it again last night, I spent the daylight and night programming again. I've gotten a lot done, and I could finally step back and look at some of the sections. For the amount of work I put in and the amount of code I wrote, it looks really fucking plain. I mean, I like it and all, but it feels almost too clean; sterile if you will. While this is really good for business people we are trying to attract and show ourselves to, it isn't really as community engaging as I would like it to be. I'm sure there is something else I can do to it, but I haven't the foggiest what.

I hung out with H last night, which was pretty cool. I got to see her new hair style too. Sure, long hair is cool, but the short style is very cute and energetic. Suits her well. I also got to watch her draw (outline?) which is always fun. Since I have absolutely no talent artistically with the pen and the drawing and the color things, I love to watch people make things. I could easily sit and watch people work for hours. Actually, I kinda did. ^_^ Anyway, I am really hoping to get out of the house tomorrow and do something. I have no idea what, but I have programmed myself into the ground and am going to scream if I see another <?PHP.…

I've got some of the worst fucking design block ever right now. I can't bring myself to be creative and do anything. I need to do work for the CAC web site, and I need to do work on the CSUMB Anime Club Page. In the context of the later, I sat there and stared at a sheet of paper for a good 3-4 hours and nothing materialized. I've never frozen for this long on a layout before, so hopefully after a bit of sleep I will get an idea for something.

My brother did the graduation thing on Friday. He seems to be no worse for wear, although he is at Grad Night right now. At the graduation ceremony, I got to see some of the people from HS I didn't mind seeing, didn't see a few of the people I had hoped to see, but managed to avoid all the people I had hoped to avoid. I didn't realize how many people I knew in school had younger siblings three years behind. It was warm, although not terribly hot, and when I got back I got a chance to relax and work on the more technical side of the anime club page. I also learned the servers so kindly provided by CSUMB are the most restrictive, useless, worthless things out there. There is no cgi, no MySQL, but we get PHP. However, the server automatically chmods any files you try and create, and the PHP writefile is disabled. What this actually translates to is that I do not have neither jack nor crap for resources to work with. I had to hand modify a PHP script for our news posting, but I don't think I can do that for the message board. I am hoping Bay Area Anime can help with that. If we could get a board hosted by them, that would be very cool. I could even develop the skin/style for it so it felt integrated into the site. .... oh wait, I don't know what the site is going to look like. -_-;…

Yeah, dawn is breaking soon, so? Had a lot on my mind, couldn't sleep, so I sat down and programmed and it didn't help, and I thought about working on the CAC page, but I was too tired of menial work, and so I complained in my journal.

Anyway, I have a lot of stuff I could be doing and should be doing, but every time I panic that con season is coming too quickly, I remind myself I still have 2 weeks. No, that's not a lot of time, but I keep thinking it is only a weekend away and that induces slight panic. Actually what induces more panic right now is AX. I am really hoping Chris and Michelle go with me, because otherwise I will have to kill AX plans within days of them actually happening, and that would suck. As it is, I already had to throw cosplay aside this year. I guess having one year where I actually did it isn't too bad; my heart seems to be more in the panels. I got confirmation for both Fanime and AX now, which means I need to announce them to the CAC list and also start working on the handout(s). I also need to have the CAC redesign done by Fanime too- urk.…

We live in a world with stupid people.

Email from Admissions and Records: IMPORTANT REMINDER TO ALL CSUMB STUDENTS You will NOT be able to register for classes, if you have not complied with the following applicable immunization requirements.…

I feel pretty drained, so I don't expect this to be too long of an entry. The day was spent peacefully at home relaxing, although I had to tend to the fallout of a broken hammock. It was really nice to iron out some stuff on my server, work on my page a bit, and get the new LJ styles system in place. For those of you that read the LiveJournal flavor of this, even the comment pages have a new look and feel. If, however, you are one of the cool people who keeps up with the really public one you will see a slick new button on the right side. It belongs to Soldeini, owner of Very Special Fanfiction.

Boys and girls, this is as shameless as a plug gets with all it's clothes still on. You should go see some of the archived stuff she has over there. From FB to Please Save My Earth, it's is very special.…

I've deleted the first few sentences several times now. I can't or rather don't want to try and put things into words right now. So instead I am going to keep my chin up and my shoulder down.

You can't win 'em all but damn, can't I just win one now and again?…