It seems the more I write here, the more entries are becoming more and more private. It isn't so much I don't want people to know. Many of you read "Down" and many of you responded. And then I realized how many people out there know me and potentially could read this. So the name changed. M became |/| and now it does not come up in a search. I had to, despite my not wanting to. I don't want to be found by the people from Oakmont. Not here, nto where I divulge my thoughts, fears, and ambitions. It already happened. Happened once before. With someone I thought was my friend. I keep telling people that was why I divoced my diary from my site, and I never told them the actual event. So, let us step back now...
This story is dated back to my second version of an online presence, site design number 2. The site is still up at mechanicalruins.hypermart.net only the journal is no longer there. The site will slowly change, it is evolving. And the new site that is the new (and hopefully improved) me will take its place. So anyway, I had my site, and I kept a diary which contained my thoughts along with various other things. This was pre December of last year, almost a year ago, when I was just starting my breakup with Sara, my first girlfriend, first kiss, first person I truly fell for. I got an email from two people about how they goofed off, smoked pot, etc. I didn't know how to take it. First, it was a random email out of the blue, and second it was right on the tail of my best friend telling me he smoked pot. This is where the whole distase from pot came from, for those following along. So I wrote in my journal about how much I hated pot and how it was changing people. They were doing something harmful and how they had no regard for themselves. So I wrote about it.
Someone read it. And it was all the talk of the New Year's Party. So then I got a not so nice email from the two people saying who brought it up and hwo they felt. I got mad. I wrote about it. One of them applogised.
One of them did not.
It was this other person that threatened me whe I incriminated him directly. I said his name, and made a point of saying who it was, since I KNEW by now he read it. The ensuing emails resulted in the threats. Now, I know I couldn't be held legally responsible and the worst that could happen would be closing down my website. The defense use din a recent case was a website that is not actively promoted is no different than paper found on the ground.
Regardless though, I removed it from my site, and I moved here. And now, I am slowly changing the name, adapting it so everyone who knows me still knows me. And thos prying eyes can't find me. Search for "Mechanical Ruins", I dare ya...
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