She dreams her dreams in Technicolor
I want to put the above in a song, but I lack the lyrical talent to do such things. I was about to crawl up into bed, and decided to jot down a few thoughts for my own sake. First off, I need to find a copy of LOtR extended edition that I can watch. I have really wanted to see it, and currently lack the funds to go get it myself. Money is a bit on the tight side right now, and I figure I will just scrape by. This month, I have been operating on $265 less than I should have been. This makes things such as food and gas serious expenses. I am trying to plan out the next two weeks so that everything will work out as far as money goes. I should be able to make it, as next week I head home Wed. where food is (more or less) free, and I can get key things such as condiments and dinner ideas. Maybe I can even locate a cheap crock pot, since it doesn't look like Jake will be getting his up here within the next 6 years. As far as remaining money, I figure I have about two tanks of gas and four meals left, or some balance in between. Since I only have to gas up once on the way home usually, and am at 3/4 right now, things will work out pretty well. I have things here around the apartment for food, and so the meals can be saved for SC this weekend.
I'm not totally sure how this weekend is going to work out honestly. I think it will probably be the end of Escaflowne on Saturday, which means we will finish well past midnight most likely. I doubt H would want to come back to the bay around that time, and I wouldn't blame her. (I mean shoot, driving hwy 1 at 2:30 am is not the most exciting thing in the world.) Anyway, either way it's a second trip up to SC on Sunday for SAMO, which has the end to Hellsing (so I can't really miss that). Before I know it, Monday will be back again, and then it will be back to the academic grindstone. I swear, weekends go by too quickly. Actually, come to think of it, this semester has gone by too quickly. It has been an awesome semester, but it is somehow strangely over already. I swear it was only a month ago when I made my first trip to SC to visit H and Matt.
As crazy as it sounds, I feel bad about feeling bad about my Friday plans. Now, if that last sentence made any sense, I applaud you. I don't want to feel bad because I have to change things around. I don't want to feel bad because I am afraid of it making others feel bad, which would in turn only make me feel worse. I suppose the best solution is to stuff away the feeling bad part and just deal with it. That seems to work. Or sleep, yeah, that's always a nice thing.
I don't get why I have been tired so lately. It's so odd. Could my body actually be wanting normal sleep times? I find that hard to believe, although I am pretty sure this sleep schedule began when I got sick. I'm just glad I listened to it and let my body rest. I have a bad habit of pushing it well past what it should be. The last time I seriously pushed myself was about 2 years ago, and it had me sick over new years with a horrible flu and I was pretty much wrecked. [No, he was well beyond wrecked. He had gone so far without adequate food and sleep that his body just outright quit on him, immune system included. -Ed] Anyway, I have since learned that when my body wants to sleep, it needs to sleep, and there is probably a good reason.
So, I heed the call of bed. I suppose at some point I may actually go back and try and make sense of this all. For now though, I am posting it, spelling errors and all.
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