It's gotten bad, my mind is churning with ideas and there is no worthwhile way to express them currently. I have wanted to make things happen on Gaia, so badly wanted to get some decent RP going, but there is too strong of a desire of the people on the damn forums to create a world that is anything but Gaia. I don't want to play in Pern, I don't want to play next to WaiWai!Duo_Kun69, and I don't want to be surrounded by fifty clones of the same lame uninventive idea. I want to help mold and create a tangible anime/fantasy roleplaying world, which from everything I have seen about Gaia was its original intent. With time, its intent has faded away and now I don't think anyone knows what it is. Gaia aside though, I have been craving decent RP time badly. I have written up several memorable locations, created a half dozen NPCs that tickled my fancy, and all I haven't done is touched character sheets for them.
It's official for those who missed it-- I am a nerd to the core. I am also a nerd with currently too much creativity and no means of expression. I don't draw, I don't fanfic write. I tend to design, and I tend to create, and currently I have nothing to direct this energy towards. I have been investing so much energy into my project (which is thankfully done) that I didn't have any side projects. I finished Chrono Trigger, finished felocity.org's redesign, finished writing stuff for Gaia (which I will probably not use), and am now trying to sort out what exactly is left.
I think I am going to park myself down for a bit and work on convention related things. Those can't sit on the back burner forever.
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